Fall To Pieces

I keep a journal of memories
I’m feeling lonely, I can’t breathe
Velvet Revolver

Every once in a while someone comes into your life seemingly by accident, yet later on you come to realize that it was no accident. I have someone like that in my life. My Muse has helped me through a lot of tough stuff this past year and I can honestly say she has helped me somehow retain the small bit of sanity I have left.
I wasn’t going to do a Valentines post, but as I crawled into bed at 9:30 on February 13, I donned my headphones and pushed “Shuffle” on my Dope Tunes playlist. This was the first song to play and suddenly I knew I wasn’t going to bed because this was what I wanted to write about.
I can’t tell you how many times in the past 12 months I’ve felt like I’m falling to pieces, but I can tell you that every single time she has been there to either help me up or to offer me the encouragement to help myself. I’ve had a rough five years and I will be the first to admit that I can be a real tool at times; but when there’s someone (metaphorically) standing beside you with encouragement, it makes falling to pieces a whole lot easier to handle.
Look at the lyrics below, watch the video and be assured that when I say I feel like I fall to pieces, I don’t mean in a night club bathroom from a heroin OD. (I leave that to lead singer Scott Weiland.) My Muse has seen me at my worst and I’m looking forward to her being around to see me at my best. Fingers crossed.
It’s tough to keep something going when two people are separated by almost 3,000 miles, but somehow we’ve managed it. My message in this post is simple and its directed to my Muse. Thank you. You have no idea how much you mean to me.
It’s been a long year
Since you’ve been gone
I’ve been alone here
I’ve grown old
I fall to pieces, I’m falling
Fell to pieces and I’m still falling
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
I keep a journal of memories
I’m feeling lonely, I can’t breathe
I fall to pieces, I’m falling
Fell to pieces and I’m still falling
All the years I’ve tried
With more to go
Will the memories die
I’m waiting
Will I find you
Can I find you
We’re falling down
I’m falling
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces